Annie Holland Fed up with life..........

Sometimes i wander what this world is coming too!? I mean have you listened to the music that is being played and ever watched the news? what is up with everything that is going on about teens getting shot and drug busting? Not to even mention me feeling like really left out in my drawing class. The class its self is amazing! I have the best teaher like ever and she is teaching me new ways and helping me learn how to draw but its my class mates.... I feel like im left out in the jokes and the friendships. I always feel like im in the way and that im annoying everyone. This is why i bring my music to listen too in there. Jerad you are awesome! When im with you i feel like i belong. Although i do often wander.... :/ I went to wal mart tonight to look for a camera and I saw the tv's and all they had was flat screen tv's and i was like whoah! for real!? What happened to the box tv's?! Who knows what is to come...... While i was there it made me realize how much i hate wal mart and why do i shop there?!  Its almost 1 am and i just got the sudden urge to write some soo im writing. Here is a secret I feel like a failure next to my little sister... I wish that i could draw better and i hate i mean hate my voice. I wish that i could decide on what to do in my life and i wish that for once i could just let things be. truth be know i cry to much for my own good. Now im just rambling through a blog i mean can you blame me? Im 22 i feel like im 15....! Oh man now im sitting here freaking out about my life. why cant i be who i want to be? you say your proud of me so why do i feel like its a lie? I must be thinking to much.. the tears are streaming down my face now... :( ok this sucks.....   (******) Classes are going well... random much? Im ocd and im thinking im slighty dislexic.. not bad.................  i want to move to ashville and become a hippy anyone in?   sleep now not really hello youtube!

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